Eyes Wide Shut

Hey, friend! This blog drop is such a touchy subject for me, but it's a topic God has been giving me revelation on and led me to write about. I've realized for a while now, God gifted me the ability to discern peoples feelings and emotions in just about any situation. There are honestly a lot of people like that. And because I've always been able to read a room, I felt as though my eyes were always open and I was a few steps ahead of the game. Recently God revealed to me, that I was not ahead of anything and that I had my eyes wide shut.

I've struggled with being a "yes man" or "woman" in my case, as long as I could remember. I've agreed to do things that I didn't want to do, that I didn't feel up to doing, or that I didn't have the means to do. I've gone along with conversations when people are speaking on things I don't agree on, don't believe in, or I just think is plain out wrong. It's not something I'm proud, but it's my truth.

I've always been the type to aim to please people even if it had an effect on me. I've allowed people to belittle me, make me feel less than, make me feel like it isn't okay to celebrate myself, treat me as if I didn't matter, dismiss me, pick and choose when they wanted to deal with me and I knew exactly what was happening but acted as if I didn't. (Eyes wide shut)

It took some time, but God has finally begun to deliver me in that area and is showing me that being aware of how people are treating me is only half the battle. He showed me that although I was wise enough to go to him about the different ways people were treating me, the true power was in doing something about the way I'm being treated. Yes, my eyes have been opened because I can see what is happening, however I put a blinder over my own eyes and shut them when I don't address what's happening. This is what He has taught me so far on this journey...

Guard Your Heart!

God has shown me that it is not my job to fix other peoples issues. On so many occasions when I can tell someone is feeling ill towards me, and I don't know why, or maybe they are just in a funky mood in general, I have a bad habit of overcompensating the moment. I start talking too much, or I figure out ways I can please them and turn their moods around. God had to show me recently that, that IS NOT MY JOB! It is not my job to make them feel better, it is not my job to figure out what's wrong, it is not my job to discover if they're upset because of something I did. But instead of being on the wondering end, take notes to how many times that person puts me in a place where I feel like this and make a choice that is best for me. Especially if the person isn't even addressing how they feel.

God told me that it is time to GUARD MY HEART! To recognize that I am able to discern the feelings and emotions of others and because of that, I should use that and go to Him in order to determine where people should be placed in my life and their level of importance. He's showing me that I don't have to deal with people who are "sometimey" with me. People where I have to always play a guessing game to figure out if I'm on their good side or if they've managed to find something else to be upset about. He's showing me that I can love them, pray for them, and care for them without allowing them to penetrate the deeper parts of me.

I'm in a season of learning to guard my heart, and it's tough, but God always manages to show up and give me that reassurance He knows I so desperately need when deciding who and what should have access to me. I'm learning that the truth of the matter is, everyone won't clap for you when you win and THAT'S OKAY. You pray for those people and ask God to give you direction on where that person should be placed in your life.

Application

I pray that after reading this blog you are able to open your eyes forreal. Take off the blinder, accept people and situations for what and who they are and guard your heart. You do not have to people please, you do not have to make people okay, that is God's job. It is okay to notice the people who are praying vs preying and love them or care for them in a way that isn't penetrating your heart.

Prayer

Dear God, we thank you for your protection, love, grace and mercy. God we thank you for keeping our circles in a space that edifies you. We thank you for opening our eyes and allowing us to walk in more confidence. God we bless you for showing us that we don't have to please anyone but you! Continue to heal and reveal God the people out there that are just like me. Allow us to be confident in your word and protection over our lives. I ask that you continue to cover and keep Hidden Treasures as we continue to Heal, Evolve, and Rise together! AMEN!