The Truth Is...

There have been sooo many shifts and changes going on in my life. I mean to the point where I feel like I am going and going and going and never catching up. Between teaching, my personal life, my spiritual life, and Hidden Treasures I am having a real struggle with maintaining BALANCE!

Initially, I was going to cancel this week's blog and just give myself a moment to regroup, but instead I decided to give you guys a transparency post! I feel like even the tougher moments in life are worth acknowledging because let's face it, tough times are just something we can't avoid. This week's blog will be short and sweet, but I pray you all can relate to my struggles and find comfort in knowing you aren't alone when you have these overwhelming life moments.

Where do I even begin? LOL, no but seriously. Life has been lifing, but not in the disastrous, super negative way, which I am super thankful for. It's more so having an overwhelming, mind-boggling, time-consuming effect on me, and I am really out here desperate for some balance. If I'm being honest my spiritual life and Hidden Treasures hold the most weight in these feelings that I am experiencing.

I feel like I can be transparent with you guys, so I'm going to be. God has given me so many visions, goals and expectations for Hidden Treasures. Amazing, but I go through these different phases where I am super eager to fulfill the vision, but when I begin walking in the vision, I get overwhelmed with it and sit it down and take my sweet time returning. I've asked God so many times why I continue to do this, but I feel like I still don't have an answer.

A good friend of mine, who runs a successful boutique told me when I first began this journey that consistency is key. And I feel like maybe that is something I am lacking. I feel like God is testing to see if I will maintain my consistency even if it doesn't seem as if anyone is listening. If I will remember that I am doing this to glorify Him and to edify His kingdom. In most instances, I believe I do remember my why because I never focus on the numbers, or who is paying attention. However, on the other hand I can say that when I am receiving feedback and actually seeing the impact on people, it puts that fire in me to create my content, to write and get the job done! But I feel like God has me in a place where He is trying to show me that He is all the fire I need. His approval is the only thing that matters, and as the Bible says in all things we do, do it as if we are doing it for the Lord himself. Lol it's so funny, God literally just gave me the answer to my problem, while writing this blog. Isn't He so faithful?

Now that I've gotten that off my chest, lol.. I want to talk about this struggle in my spiritual life. My personal life has been super busy. I mean I am constantly in motion doing something or going somewhere and it is definitely having an impact on my spiritual life.

It's not that I don't have a desire to talk to God, or I am completely shutting Him out and neglecting Him because I still talk to Him daily, pray to Him and even get into my word often. My biggest issue is I can tell it has not been in the same intimate way it usually is for Him and I. For the past 2-3 weeks I haven't had that good ugly cry worship session, or that laying on my face prayer and I don't like that. I've been coming home, and yes making time to talk to Him and pray, but not taking time to get intimate with Him. That has bothered me a lot because I feel so distant. I have a desire to be submerged in His presence but I am struggling so badly with balancing a space and time for me to get into that secret place.

I DON'T KNOWWWWW!!! LOL, yall please just keep me in your prayers. I know that I am going through this season for a divine purpose, but it can still be very frustrating. I know I'm not the only person that has every been in this space. Having so many things to do, but just not know how or where to start, or truly desiring to give more time to God but not knowing where to get that time from... One thing that brings me peace is that I know He is with me and that He will see me through this season of my life!

Application-

Today's blog was just a moment for me to really show you all sides of walking in what God has called you to do. It's not always pretty, and it doesn't always make sense, but KEEP GOING. If God brought you to it, He will see you through it and we all, including myself, have to rest in that. My advice to you all is to keep praying and giving yourself back to God as much as you can and then some. The vision may not seem like it's working out, but we know that ALL things work together for the good of them who LOVE the Lord! We've got this, because He has us.

Prayer

Dear God, I thank you for giving me the endurance to drop my blog this week. I thank you for every trial and tribulation I am currently facing because I know in the end it will make me better. Thank you for your love, your grace and your mercy you've given me and anyone else who is reading this as we go through this rough patch. I ask that you continue to clean us up so that we can continue to strive to be more like you! Lord I pray that you realign us back in what you have called us to and that you give us guidance and wisdom to follow through. We thank you for all that you've done, all that you're doing, and all that you are going to do! Lord I ask that you bless Hidden Treasures and that you guide and cover us on our journey as we continue to Heal, Evolve, and Rise together! AMEN!